Falling in Love Was Not the Plan — Chapter 26

Amara's point of view...

I walked out of his sight, and he did not even stop me. My heart was crazing to listen to his and say, 'Amara, don't leave. I am sorry. Nothing was a plan. Not our Kiss at least!' but all he did, was shamelessly open all the jars and let the candies spread unevenly on the floor.

Alex and I shared a good time together, I was wondering for him to stop me, huge me, apologize to me for making me feel left out during those days after the kiss nevertheless he simply ignored everything I said with shocked expressions. I cannot trust my own self that I had to experience his negligence like that.

Oh, Amara why do you feel so low. Haven't you had known that this is only going to happen?

You knew everything from the start. Right from the moment he came to meet you in the garden and did not even know your name, you knew it, that it was just an effort to get close to me so that he can be my friend and seek help with studies. I have seen teachers ask about his academic performance to his friends in the classes during his match practises.

He gave the college the tournament cup again. Our college was the defending champion, and we defended our position in the sports sector just because of Alex. And I am sure even if he had failed in the exams teachers would have passed him by giving grace marks. He deserved that though. He had spent his day and night practising for the matches and ultimately bought the soccer cup back to where it belonged, our college.

It was like a magic when he came in my life. Ah, those days! I cannot describe those days when we would hang out together. He took me to his favourite places, he taught me the meaning of life. It was him he made me understand that there was life beyond textbooks and the four walks of the classroom.

He helped me live the life I always dreamed of but fate had something else in store for me. It did give me happiness yet it was restricted for a short period of time.

Never mind, I had known this. That after the end of the exams he will come and spill the truth out and our lives will be how it was before. His, filled with passion and joy. Mine, filled with books and books and only books.

In Fact, how can I forget that day where I had caught him scaring Chloe and swearing across her to hurt me. I know he had not meant when he said that for, the next day only he had come to see me with flowers and apologized for something I did not know about. He took me out to dinner and asked me whether I forgave him for the mistake which i did not know what was it.

No matter what, he did hurt me. Now he will not see me any more as the next year we may have new and much better students than me who would be enough to help him. I and him will never be able to sit together, study, talk, smile and stare into each other's eyes and laugh.

"You are back, okay listen I am going on a drive with my boy so you take care of the room. Please clean this mess, I will do it next time." I silently sat on my bed ignoring to see her face. Chloe, my room mate was sitting on the small dressing table that she has installed in the room for herself and getting ready.

The room was a big mess with her clothes fallen everywhere on the floor and her different colours of bras littering the side of my bed. I pushed them aside and placed my bag there making sure that she can't see my eyes. "Amara, are you even listening to me! I said I am going ou...." She turned her head from the mirror to me with mascara in her hand.

"Y-yeah, I... I will do it. Do-don't worry you en-enjoy" I pushed away the tears that were sliding from my eyelashes.

What I had not desired happened and Chloe noticed that, as the next second only, "Amara.... Are you crying?" She questioned me, there was shock filling her lung while she breathed out a strong sigh like she knew the cause of my tears. "Is that... Is that Alex the reason? Did he... Did he do or say something! Tell me Amara" Her body left the little stool she was sitting and her body swung before she found some place beside me on the bed.

I was actually feeling like laughing on her as one eye of hers had the mascara applied while the other one was still naked with no eye makeup on. "Come on, say something. Is that Alex the one who hurt you?" She asked me again this time, her eyes narrowing with suspect when I bobbed my head in sideways.

She was a great support system. Her mind can read my emotions just by looking at my eyes. Chloe often mentioned that my eyes expressive, but I always shushed her with a smile. "NO, it's not him. I am just... As I told you few days back... I miss my brother and parents. I want to go home. So I shall be going home the next week." I lied wiping my cheeks as I cannot find any other reason.

She was any ways going to blame Alex, but he was not at fault. He never gave me any commitments. It was me who always had a soft corner for him. I liked him for who he was. I had seen many movies where the hero would be charmingly handsome and a great sports person. He did not do anything, it was always me who desired his presence. That was why I agreed to help him knowing the end of this beforehand.

"Are you sure!" My room mate was not satisfied yet, she narrowed her eyes more as though they may shut down soon but I can sense she was Smelling the smell of my lies. "Are you sure it is not Alex who hurt you!"

"I swear, God promise it is not him who hurt me. It's me who gets hurt by herself. You know I am so emotional and delicate!" I expressed my smile between a toothy grin as a tear trickled to my cheek again.

Who to confess that I was in love!

To whom should I say that that love was going to stay incomplete forever.

How to express that a Nerdy like me fell for the famous guy of the college.

Chloe snapped her head towards her bed looking at her buzzing phone. It was her boyfriend calling her. "Eh, yeah baby. Yep, I am just on my way. Uh, no. I am ready almost just that Amara was in tears, so I waited back. Oh no, I will just come down. Hang in there, yeah, bye" She talked, back to back on the call with a second's pause.

Her hand flared in the air as she got up from my side of bed. She carefully walked through the mess on the floor carefully going near the door.

"Alright, I will take your leave. There is my burger packed near the bedside, if you want you can have it. Babe just got it for me but I can't eat it." she informed wearing her extremely high heels that I cannot think if wearing, even in my wildest fantasy.

She looked prettier in a white skit with black straps on the side and a small top paired up with it. I cannot imagine her wearing a wild kind of jacket with furs on the line of the forearm until she remixed it from a bag. "Chloe" she was so busy with her earrings and sandals that she cannot hear even me.

"Oh Amara, please I will listen your rants once I am back. Can't you see my boy is waiting down there" she informed, but I was not calling her to listen to my rants.

Instead, I called her, "At least complete your eye makeup. You other eyes is not kohled with mascara" to remind her about the mascara she forgot to put since she had come to attend me.

"Oh thank you!" Her hands worked like machine and within a second she kohled her other eyes perfectly and dashed out of the room not before wishing me a bye.

I looked at the messy room around and my packed suit cases that were kept in the corner of the room. I had packed my whole stuff in the bag and kept it ready to go back home already for the summer holidays. But I won't be able to face him after today. Will I be able to wait back until the result are out after a week!

No. I can't.

Tbc...