Contract Marriage With My Ex — Chapter 52. I need him

Kiara's point of view...

He was really dancing with that woman who killed his daughter. Not even did he look disgusted for a second. Her dress was backless, looked like Shania purposely wore a dress like that knowing that she would get to dance with her ex husband.

My heart broke shattered laying my eyes on their bodies. They were pressed together and oh— she kissed him on the lips. Whispers erupted in the entire hall, people were talking about them.

The ex couple was kissing each other on the dance floor. Cherry on top, a spot light fell on them hence highlighting their kiss scene in the party. Flickering lights of cameras filled my ears as there were camera men standing in the corners taking good snaps of couple kissing.

Enough!

I can't see them any more. Raven responded to her kiss too. Not being able to take the pain I ran out of that hall. I stopped across a garden. The sky was drizzling lightly.

My body slid on the floor since my legs finally gave up. They were shaking in the hall only, but they gave up here. I am happy that I didn't fall there otherwise I could not escape that scenario.

But honestly— I deserved that.

I destroyed my life with my own hands. And I cannot blame Raven for responding to the kiss. It was me only forced him to do that. Only if I had not left him in the most needed times then today he would have avoided the kiss.

I sat there crying to myself. The memories of their kiss resumed in front of my eyes again and again. Raven is a good kisser, I can feel Shania enjoying his lips on hers.

And the very thought of them kissing again made me cry.

Don't know how long I kept sitting there. My back was aching now. I pulled myself up standing on my feet again. I have overcome those memories. In fact, I was feeling light headed now after crying.

I wouldn't go back in the party though. I don't want to see them again. So with a quick message I delivered to Payton, I informed him about my where abouts and walked out the garden.

All I need is some time alone before I face Raven. Yes, it was the main reason why I came to the party. I want to talk to him about us, about our son. He will be hurt for some time but I know he will forgive me.

Hope is everything. If I hope than anything is possible.

I was walking on the garden alone. The drizzling has stopped now. It felt good. I wish if I could have a company— wait, was that Billy's voice?

I was enjoying my time alone unless I heard some cries. They belonged to a kid. Moving my legs in that direction, I quickly looked behind the pillar where they grew loud and, "Billy!" My eyes filled with tears as it was really him.

I can't stop my emotions at all. My legs sprinted towards the lady who was holding him and turned her around. As soon as his eyes fell on me he smiled brightly while his arms moved randomly in the air. "Billy, my baby!" I raised my hand in order to caress his cheek, but he bust into loud cries.

"Mamm... Mamma!!" He blinked his lashes jumping in her hands.

He was certainly shocked and over delighted seeing his mamma. The lady was perplexed with my sudden appearance. She hugged Billy tight, "Please, I am his mother. Please let me hold him once just once." I begged her looking at how my baby jumped in her hands, he wanted to come in his mamma's arms.

She seemed his nanny. But very kind one as the next moment, right after she heard Billy calling me 'mamma' and stretching out his arms to me, she handed him in my arms stepping aside.

I can't control my feeling. Three months, I was holding him after three months. My heart pained seeing how he trembled in my arms. He was still not able to believe I was really back. His little arms curled around my neck while his tiny head pressed against my thoughts.

My already dried throat turned even dryer feeling his lips quiver across my skin. He was in real pain. His nanny was in tears too.

"Hey Billy, that's okay.. That's okay baby. Mamma is here! Stop crying shh." My hands continuously stroked his head and back simultaneously as I hugged him close to my chest.

His never stopping sobs made realize what torture did I do on him by leaving him away. That made me recognize as the most cruel mother. I gave him life, brought him back to the world of happiness nevertheless when he was really learning as to how beautiful the world really was— I left him.

"Shh... No baby... Don't cry. Mamma's here. Sushh... It's okay... It's okay." It took me sometime to calm him down.

His body was sticking to mine like a baby monkey to his mother. The only thought of it brought a smile on my face. He gave me the big gesture position in his life. He really calmed down in my arms.

I gazed at his nanny, she smiled wiping her tears away. She seemed impressed by me as I managed to calm my baby within few minutes. He yet sobbed, he had stopped wriggling but his lips still moved across my throat.

"You don't know how much he missed you, madam." I was busy stroking his back when his nanny spoke recognising me as his step mother.

All I can do was look at her face and smile since Billy had his face hidden in my throat. I didn't want to disturb my baby at all. "He never stopped missing you. Shania ma'am shouted on him so many times for he wouldn't call her Mum. How can he call her a mother when it was you who he always wanted. I am happy you came. Please take him away with you otherwise he'll die. He seems too attached to live without you!" She disclosed.

It only watered my eyes more. My baby missed me so much. He also suffered a lot in my absence. I committed my life's biggest mistake by leaving him behind me. That was the only thing I could do to hurt Raven Though.

Any which ways, now I know what I have to do next. Mistakes can be mended, and I was here for the same reason only. "You've grown so stubborn Billy." Just as he upped his face from my embrace I faked a stern face to him, he only pouted his lips while rubbing his. He was sleepy.

"You want to sleep? Sleep peacefully, mamma is here with you" I pressed his head on my chest back.

He obediently snuggled neck before he closed his eyes. I was happy as my baby looked somewhat relieved. "Uh, have Shania booked any room here?" The building was huge, Shania must have booked a room for Billy.

The lady nodded in yes, she pointed behind me saying, "Yeah, it's in the east part of the hotel, on the third floor." I turned around after she walked ahead of me, following her to the room.

Nevertheless, just as I detached my eyes from Billy's face to look in the front then I had to abruptly halt since there was Girard standing far away from us at staring me.

Even though he was away, I can spot disgust and hatred in his eyes. He was probably disgusted that after doing so many oppressions of Billy here I was standing hugging him to my chest.

I only felt like going somewhere far away from his glares. They were making me feel disgusted too. I can sense what he was feeling and thinking now. Perhaps, thinking how heartless and characterless I was!

My eyes matched with the ground beneath as he came walking towards us. He did not day anything. In fact, he did not even look at my face after he stopped right across me a few inches away. All he did was longingly gawk at the Billy in my arms.

His face hanging on my shoulder while he snored peacefully. It allows his uncle to get a clear view of his face.

I know he had too much to talk, yet he kept quiet. He behaved as if I was invisible. He didn't seem surprise seeing me here though as this was not our first meet. All the shocking expressions and the gasps— I witnessed them in the corridor of that hotel that day.

"I know I may be looking very disgusting and pathetic woman to you... But I want you to know I regret every moment till now. I am ashamed of taking a revenge on Billy to hurt Raven. But I swear, I swear Girard, I love Billy more than myself."

He didn't want to speak but I wanted to. I don't care whether he would believe me or not, I just wanted to make myself clear.

" You believe it or not, from now on I will do everything that I can to save him from all the threats." I can only sigh as his eyes were now on my face. "To give you a piece of information, I am going to file a case for Billy's custody case in the Supreme Court next month with the help of Payton, I just want him back. I need him. I just..." my throat choked and I can't continue my sentence any more.

I think leaving it incomplete was better than completing it. I didn't want to cry and sob and disturb my baby's sleep, "Please take me to the room" I quickly walked to his nanny so that I can go away from his burning glares.

The old lady gave me a Bob as she started her walk further. I followed her but don't know what got into my mind that I stopped again, turned around and addressed Girard again, "I don't deserve your help... But I'd be glad if you can bring Raven and your parents in the court. Payton will pass you the details" May be, I can rely on him in this matter.

If he really planned getting me married to Raven for Billy then probably, he will also bring them there! He is a great brother.

Tbc…