Falling For You — Epilogue

Lydia's POV

I wore the dress and stared at my reflection. The last 2 days had been hell for me. I wore the mask and i was good to go.

Nobody has been speaking to me. Mom and dad had to leave due to business. I had been in my room since the last 48 hours.

It was Tuesday today. Well it had just started since it is 12:12 am. I leave at 7 in the morning. My main motive to go to the party is because i want to see Blake. For the last time.

I sighed.

I was mentally and emotionally drained. I am exhausted. I don't know what did i do to deserve this.

I took my car keys and went downstairs. Everyone was already at the party so noone was really home.

I sat in my car and started it. I was soon hitting the road.

I hadn't really ate anything in the last 48 hours. I just couldn't. It was like my appetite was gone. Whenever i saw food, i felt like vomitting.

I don't know what is happening to me.

When i reached my destination, i parked my car and got out. The music was loud as fuck. Who knew people would attend parties during week days.

Apparently, the theme of the party was masquerade but it wasnt a ball. This is why girls were wearing dresses with masks while boys were wearing shirts or whatever with masks.

I looked around the room and spotted Blake in the corner of the room. He was sitting on a chair with a cup of alcohol in his hand.

There was a girl sitting on his lap but his attention was not on the girl. He was looking straight ahead.

The rest of our group sorrounded him. I sighed and tears welled up in my eyes. I really didn't want to leave. I wanted to go to him and tell him the truth.

But, i couldn't and i knew that. if i do that, I'd put my parents and also my group of friends in danger. I couldn't do that.

Someone bumped behind me, bringing me out of my thoughts. It was hard which caused me to fall ahead and hit my head.

Ouch.

"Yo chick. Look where the fuck you're standing." The guy shouted. The music had turned off. My tears fell freely from my eyes as i rubbed the spot where i got hit.

Fuck you floor.

"Yeah. I am sorry. I was just leaving." I said and got up. I looked in Blake's direction and he was staring right at me along with the rest of the group.

I pursed my lips and headed out of the house and got inside my car and left.

I woke up the next morning at 5. I got ready, wore my clothes and then went to my drawer. I took out the the letter i had written for Blake and the letter i had written for the rest of the group.

I knew Julia was passed out in her bed so i sneaked into her room, placed the letters on her nightstand. I kissed her forehead and nid her a good-bye.

She stirred in her sleep but didn't wake up so i left her room.

I sighed as tears fell from my eyes. I booked an Uber which was soon here. I looked at my home for the last time and then whispered a 'good-bye'.

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Blake's POV

I woke up but I didn't have a headache because i really hadn't drank a lot of alcohol last night. I sighed and rubbed my face with my hands.

As soon as i closed my eyes, Lydia's face flashed before my eyes. I saw her last night. She looked beautiful but a lot thinner than before.

Had she not been eating properly?

Fuck it.

I still cannot believe that she would do that to me. After everything i had told her, she still did it. She fucked me up.

A part of me didn't want to believe any of this. The look in her eyes..... the sadness that i had seen in her eyes on that day, it just made me want to believe that all of this wasn't true.

I sighed.

But she could've been acting. I'll never fucking know.

I got up from my bed and headed to the bathroom. I did my business, took a shower and then wore my clothes.

I took my phone and started heading downstairs. My parents and Lydia's parents had gone for a business trip together so i don't think anyone really is here except for the maids.

But, my thoughts were proved wrong when i saw the whole group present in the living room. Everyone except for Lydia.

My heart ached as i thought about her.

Fuck i should go and confront her about this shit. But, a part of me doesn't want to see her face.

As eceryone heard me, their heads snapped jn my direction. They all looked....sad.

"What's up?" I asked as i went and sat next to River.

Julia handed me two letters.

I looked at them and frowned. I opened them. One was for me and one was for the rest of them.

I could make out Lydia's handwriting. My palms grew sweaty, my heart rate increased and i became nervous.

Oh god.

I started reading the letter with my name on it.

'Dear Blake,

I dont really know where to start this letter. I....i love you so much. I am sorry for everything that has happened. I don't know what the fuck did i do to deserve this. I love you so much Blake and i am going to tell you everything....stay with me.

The day we had went to the charity event... remember i went to the restroom? That is where i first encountered Davis. He had been on point and literally threatened me and said that i would have to act like i am cheating on you so that i could hurt you.

He said that if i dont do it then he would hurt everyone i know.....you, your family, my family and our group. He had also warned me that you shouldn't come to know about this. But, when everything is already ruined, i wanted you to know why all of that had happened.

I could never love anyone else except for you Blake. You have my heart. But, i think it's time for you to move one. Davis had also told me that I would have to leave. So, i must be gone by the time you and the others are reading the letter.

I can't really tell where i am going.....but just know that i love you Blake. I really do. Just take care of yourself and others.

Always yours,

Lydia.'

I gulped and just stared at the letter letting all the information seek in.

She is gone. Forever.

Fuck.

Tears welled up in my eyes and my hands started to shake. I shakily took the next letter and started reading it.

'Dear everyone,

I don't really know whats left to say now. Blake must've informed you all the reason why i left.

I love you all. You all are the best and nobody could ever take your place in my life. One day, maybe one day I'll return back for you all. I think i just need time now. I will contact you whenever i can.

I love you all and i already miss you. This situation is dramatic as fuck....lol.

So.... yeah. Take care of yourself and dont miss me too much. Also, please dont tell anything to mom and dad. I'll eventually text them. Send them a lots of love from my side.

I love you all.

Lydia.'

By now i was crying. I need to find her. I looked up and others were crying too. This so fucked up.

Shocks.

I need to find her. She will always be mine.

^^^^^^^^