Love That Destroys — Chapter 37 shattered soul

Turvi's pov

"don't cry, Doll face. Calm down." Aashu tried to calm me down but my tears aren't in a mood to stop

My sister left me alone here. I never stayed away from her except this 2 months and they were pure hell but now she is gone to her new home.

But it's not the real reason behind my tears. The real reason behind my behaviour is the bitter truth that I got to know two days back.

"Doll face something is bothering you?" he asked me and I cried more

"Turvi!" Mumma called my name but I know its a warning

"Aashu I need to talk about something. Can we please meet soon?" I asked him

"We will meet tomorrow evening at Stuti's reception only." He said but I shook my head

"I need to talk about something important we need to meet separately." I told him and he understand my point and nodded his head

"now i have to go bye." I told him and hugged him for last time

I walked towards Mumma who was waiting for me.

"Turvi how shameless have you become? Hugging your fiancé in public in front of everyone? Girls maintain their distance from their husbands in public and here you're hugging him shamelessly. Have some shame. Don't tarnish our image in front of everyone." she said and I kept mum

I didn't replied anything to her.

" now stay silent and show your attitude to me. God knows why I got you as my daughter." she said and a sarcastic smile appeared on my face

" am I your daughter Mumma or I better call you masi?" I asked letting her know that I know everything

"how do you know?" she asked shocked knowing that I know

"Diwar ke bhi kaan hote hai (the walls also has ears)" I said and walked away from her

While walking away I bumped on someone.

"sorry," I apologise

"it's ok." He replied and I saw its Mr. Raichand

I don't need this right now. I wanted to walk away from him but he caught my hand.

"are you OK?" he asked me suddenly

"I'm fine," I said and Freed my hand from his grip

I sat inside the car and waited for Papa and Mumma to join me.

They came and papa's face screamed that he knows that I know the truth.

The truth that just changed everything for me. And shook me from the core.

I ignored their gaze and looked outside.

The night road is calm but my heart is in chaos and this calm isn't calming me at all.

It's almost midnight when we reached our house.

I walked out of the car and went inside my room before they could stop me.

I can't take it anymore. I removed the ornaments I wore and freed my hairs from the tight bun.

I need a shower right now.

I stripped from my clothes and put them in a hanger and stepped inside the washroom.

Taking a relaxing shower I got ready for sleeping..

But sleep is far away from my eyes. I hadn't slept peacefully for two nights but I didn't let Stuti know about it.

She was happy and I have no right to destroy her happiness with my sorrow.

And she couldn't do anything about it as well.

So it's better that I didn't tell her anything she doesn't need to know about this not now at least.

She deserves happiness. Maybe she isn't my blood sister but I love her more than a blood sister.

How could they lie to me? How? Doesn't I deserve to know the truth?

If I didn't overheard them that night then I would have never known this.

Flashback

Two days back on the mehendi ceremony night.

I woke up feeling thirsty and found stuti sleeping heavily.

She is tired so obviously she will sleep only.

I looked around to find a bottle but found none.

Sighed, I got up to drink water from the kitchen.

I came downstairs to have water when I saw Mumma and papa's room light on.

It's pretty late, they should be asleep till now.

Maybe they are talking about the marriage.

I took a bottle from the fridge and drank water and took it with me.

"Why can't you just forget everything Minakshi? It's so many years from that incident." I heard papa's voice

Papa never talks in a loud voice. What happened that he is talking like this now?

Curiosity killed the cat and my curiosity took the best out of me.

I go towards their room to clearly hear what they are talking about.

" No, I can't forget anything. After what ever happened I tried but that girl she is an ungrateful girl. She is just a bad omen in our life." Mumma said and a pang of hurt hit me hard

What is she talking about?

"Minakshi doesn't use that word for my daughter. She isn't a bad omen." papa said sternly.

"exactly she is only your daughter not mine. I can't believe that for her I did everything. The day this girl took birth everything became wrong. While taking birth she killed my twin sister, her birth mother. Then because of her our baby died in my womb and I became infertile. Because of her tantrums Didi and jijaji (Stuti's parents) met with an accident and died. It's all because of her. She is a walking destruction. Wherever she goes destruction comes with her. I married you only to take care of her but she being an ungrateful girl is ignoring me giving me the fruit of my love and care"Mumma said and my heart skipped a beat

The hold on my water bottle became tight as tears freely flowed from my eyes.

" Kamakshi chose Turvi over herself; it wasn't her fault. You were running behind her and forgetting about your pregnancy, not her fault. That day of the accident she didn't ask them to take her out, they themselves took her and that accident isn't her fault as well. So stop saying that my daughter is a bad omen.

Tell me one thing Minakshi did you ever loved Turvi freely? Did you ever see her as the equal of Stuti? No you didn't. You had always made her feel degraded. You stopped her from doing what she likes. You point out her clothing style on her behaviour and Even tried to stop her from dancing. Then what did you expect from her? Turvi Is like a river and if you try to stop it's flow forcefully it will cause destruction and nothing else. You always saw her as your step daughter. Not your daughter. You always saw her as a bad omen and a burden. How many times have you compared between Stuti and Turvi? How many times have you said that Turvi isn't like stuti?

Stuti is a good girl. She is talented and very nice but Turvi is also talented. She is a graceful dancer. Just like her mother. Yes she is outspoken yes she wears modern clothing so what? That doesn't make my daughter bad.

Stuti lets you control her and Turvi doesn't. That's the difference between them.

I never say anything between you two because I always respected you and your sacrifice for my daughter. I thought you loved her but no you don't.

Just a few more days, Minakshi a few more days and like Stuti she will also leave us and go away from here.

Just a few days don't treat her like this. I beg you. "papa said and it's enough for me

I couldn't stand there and hear this anymore.

I came back to my room and placing the water bottle aside I ran inside the washroom.

I don't know why I'm feeling nauseated and I threw up everything I ate.

My Tears aren't stopping.

Truth is always bitter. I have heard and today I faced it as well.

My whole life I thought why Mumma is like this with me?

She loves me but still shows her harshness towards me.

I thought it's her orthodox mentality but no it's not.

She just hates me and thinks of me as a bad omen.

That's why she hates me.

Did I really kill my mother? My unborn sibling? And Stuti's parents?

Will she also hate me and blame me for this?

Am I Really a bad omen?

Thinking this I broke down again…

Present

That night I didn't sleep either.

But tonight I'm exhausted. My body is screaming at me to sleep but my mind is just not listening.

I got up from my bed and found a strip of sleeping pills that I stole from papa.

I took one pill and gulped it down to sleep.

I need to sleep so she gain energy so I can do what I have planned.

Just a few days then I won't be here in your life. I won't disturb any of you ever again.